This inspired by
Zena's post...
I hope you can keep up, it's a bit messy
You know I think this year is slightly a past-resolutional year, I think some spirits were brought back yet many were crushed.
Maybe there isn't enough energy for all of us.
Our world is a strange place.
Many people's lack of necessities and insecurity have lead them to lose the feeling of enjoying, since the main focus is to survive.
It's really quite sad.
During my work on design, I have relived having a family, just by being my usual dorky self and making fun of the people with me and them just laughing about it rather than taking it too seriously and stuff.
It's fun to be disgusting.
It's fun to play with your food, I think that's why mansaf tastes better when you eat with your hands.
It's fun to enjoy stuff... no?
I have been revisiting an area pretty close to where I grew up (Jabal Amman) and pretty similar to it, also (where I lived wasn't in great condition, but I don't remebmer having much problems myself). It really made me remember what having a family was.
A family member is anyone who allows you to be yourself, be annoying, and who lets you annoy them and all that. You can be quiet with them and just listen to music, you can hang out with them.
Though most of the world is becoming as shallow as skyscrapers, and that such feats are seen as development, I think that a well-off, open-minded, intelligent country with spirit is a successful and developed country.
We all have to work, maybe we ARE schizophrenics since sometimes you just shut yourself up to work and become a different person...
... but no matter how much I work, I always have friends to be with, there's a person I adore, a person to remind me of who I was, a person to remind me of what I should do, a person to remind me of the kid that I am.
A whole bunch of people.
That's family, all of it.
There really are good people out there sometimes.
A circle of friends could be a family.
A country could be a family.
People with similar activities.
Each group kinda provides you to have your freedom in that certain angle... and people from each group gather up to form a family and stuff kinda.
Although we all just grow up and start working and worrying, friends still have a huge value. People keeping people alive... that's the beauty of it.
Hopefully people will become more accepting at some point...
No matter how old I grow, I will always see myself as the kid who played on his father's drums and on the streets, who imagined things, who sketched Sonic and videogame characters, and who hadn't lost anything nor anyone.
I am keeping my inner-child alive...
Just yesterday while working with my design group I went out of the no smoking area and just sat with a random person on a table and told him that I'm gonna sit with him and smoke a cigarette.
We talked for a while, I finished my cigarette, asked what his name was (and I forgot it :\), told him mine, then walked away.
Just today an old person came to me and two other people walking with me and told us that he found a leaf that cleaned his palm; he rubbed his palm with it and showed it to us, and it actually cleaned the palm of his hand hahah.
It was fascinating, sure at some point I thought he was stoned, but it was nice to experience such a surreal unusual activity. It's like the man was a kid playing in the grass and showing his parents. It was amazing now that I think about it, I was confused at that time when he approached us.
I don't know why I mentioned these two stories, but they're pretty interesting :)
This is what happens when you feel happy with yourself and confident I think.
A glint in one's eyes.
Something happens and sparks you up and you just feel so fucking energized and you just get inspired...
I dunno what's happening :\ but I don't mind it...
Maybe it's due to reconnecting with Jabal Amman once again.
The ancestor, the origin, the mother of Amman.
I gotta say she has such a powerful effect... an amazing, powerful effect...
