Sunday, November 30, 2008

Some "Artwork"

Some drawings I made before, these are not the best and they are not all I have drawn I have a lot.


These are the ones on my pc.
NOTE THEY LOOK BETTER IN REAL LIFE


Just some old face sketch here




Fallen Angel
One of my faves




Jimmy Page Sketch
the guitar doesn't look as good as it should




Vengeance




Paranoia
took this picture out of my notebook




Trace and Trance
also a bit old so don't mind the weird figure of the girl lol




Grim Reaper Sketch
saw the pic somewhere online and decided to sketch it




Warrior Sketch

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Inspire me!

I am feeling nothing but anger towards architecture and design.

I dunno what it is, maybe I'm just a moody person or whatever the crap, but I do not feel like working, I knew this would happen.

I was right I am completely obsolete at the moment.

Here is a list of annoying fucking things right now:

New guitar strings that feelvery very slippery CHECK
Cardboard boxes CHECK
The chair I'm sitting on right now CHECK
Design and architecture CHECK
Me, myself, and the moody annoying me CHECK


Gosh why was I not made a fucking nerd or a hard-working dweeb who can think and be creative!!!!

I NEED A BETTER FUCKING ATTENTION SPAN AND SOME INSPIRATION/ENERGY!!

Been a while, eh?

Wow so it's the 29th today and last time i posted was quite a while back really.

So guess what time it is?

It's time to lose the fucking work momentum!!!


Yup.

All that willingness to work, work ability, passion, crap-that-makes-you-work, energy, whatever the hell you wanna call it; it's all gone.

I'm a moody jackass? Yes.
I'm all discoordinated right now? Yes.
I want to work? Yes.
I am able to work? Nope.

So yeah I guess I'm gonna be blogging a bit more for a while.

Fucking design and fucking government not having my money in my bank account on time.

So now I'm thinking.

Something does control our moods; it is a fact for all you who believes it's jst a matter of luck. I don't care if you don't believe it or not, but I do.

People around us affect us most of all, and the way we interact with them all.
Faking, smiling when you don't feel like it, talking when you don't feel like it, people being annoying and you just are too nice to say shut the fuck up you shallow, faking, whoring, teen-year-old baby; all of that stuff makes you lose all your energy just being nice to people when you don't feel like being that.

I'm gonna go try working now.

Monday, November 24, 2008

History presentation

Okay so I actually worked again, which should be quite a complement for those with whom I'm working with coz I don't easily get to work lol.

He won't answer his phone and I sent him an e-mail and he didn't reply!

It's pretty annoying.

I need to conclude and I need help.

I am annoyyeeedddd!!

The past two days have been working non-stop. I miss my guitar..! :( Dammit Maul!!!

And I wanna play Final Fantasy VII it's so fun and entertaining lol.

But I miss my guitar; my Maul :(


Anyway cya, I'm still at Cups & Kilos.

I need sleep

I actually worked

So like um...

As the title says, I actually fucking worked..!

I went to some place called Gloria Jeans with some friends of mine who are part of the design group I'm in, and we got there and we WORKED lol.

I have never worked well in teams. I like working solo coz I can communicate with myself a lot better usually. But this time, I enjoyed working with my team. We went in there, we communicated, we organized, we drew, we designed, we highlighted, we thought, we fucking did what a team was supposed to do.

And it was wonderful.

It was like we were a band or something; we interacted greatly and the energy was amazing, and there was this aura that just kinda pushed each of us to work. For about 5+ hours we worked on the project. Laughing, c-o-m-m-u-n-i-c-a-t-i-n-g, talking, discussing serious things and saying anicdotes a little.

It was great.

And better thing is, I actually did some work.

Me... work... lol

It was blissful.

Some intelligent lady was every impressed with how we were working and stuff and said that we were -somehow- cheering her up while she was doing her own geology-involved work. I guess the energy was just that amazing.

Now I'm in class waiting for the professor to come and take a look at our work and stuff. It's on the boards right now, waiting to be admired :)

Ooh and some Russian professor who teaches basic design liked a sketch of mine.


I'm amazed about how I actually worked well. It's a great feeling.


Anyway, I had to share that.

:) To my group (who I probably won't show this to), it was an honor to share such an experience with you.

Thank you.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Twilight

Die Twilight die...

Is there anyone at all that hates Twilight other than me...?

I don't know why I hate it [apart from the fact that the world swoons at it and it's all Harry Potter and crap], but I fucking DESPISE that book.

I hate it.
I abso-fucking-lutely hate it.

Sorry Mousy but I just do.

The mention of this Twilight brings out the most graphic, angry, violent thoughts to my mind.


I never read it and yes I am being very judgemental about it, but this book is a thing I very much am stubborn about and am against; for reasons even I don't know.

Though I hate the fact that everyone likes it -which is also why I hate Harry Potter [Pothead] as well now-.

I could probably get a piece of paper and draw a vampire labelled Edward Cullen on it and sells it for millions [yes that was exaggerative sarcasm].


Thank you.


I hate people who act tough but actually live out their need of being weak in every single way possible.
In some way, we all are that way.
In reality we are all hypocrites.


Hate and Angst,
Sincerely

Stairway to Heaven

Gosh I love this song...

Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven


Album Version

Live Version


There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven
Ooh, it makes me wonder
Ooh, it makes me wonder

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees
And the voices of those who stand looking
and it makes me wonder
really makes me wonder

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forest will echo with laughter

***

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May Queen
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on
Ooh, it makes me wonder
Ooh, Ooh, it makes me wonder

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know
The piper's calling you to join him
Dear lady, can't you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind

***

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last
When all is one and one is all, yeah
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying the stairway to heaven...







:)
I love it.

I had to share it.

Enjoy.

That Verification Word Thing..

..has been removed -by me, of course-, so go on now Farah have yourself a jolly blast eh? lol


You know it puts funny-sounding, not-real words sometimes hahah I kinda enjoy it.

What is so annoying about writing a frikkin 5-lettered word you lazy-asses? -.- gosh.


I mean you're on a blog and you can read right? *rolls his eyes*


Hm.. what else is new...

Oh yeah..

AAAAAAAH!!!!!!!! *has a panic attack coz he's gonna fail history of architecture tomorrow and is screwed and hates university*


..There

Cya

Friday, November 21, 2008

"Hmm do I taste cu-Cum-bers?"

Natural Harvest

Oh my goodness this is the most hilarious thing I have seen in a while!!

Look at the reviews XD

Oh crap I cant stop laughing! XD

I'm such a dumbass -.-

Though I know you all are gonna go haa haa yeah you are just for the sake of being "funny", I'm serious XD.

I was supposed to work on my history presentation for tuesday and stuff but nooooooo Saed didn't install Microsoft office -.- so now I have nothing to do at all until Abdulla comes and I'm just bored off my ass right now.

I'm sitting inside at cups and kilos right now and for some reason I feel that Abdulla is sitting outside not knowing I'm in here or something lol.

Anyway I coulda strated working on history but I have nothing to put my stuff on so I guess I'm just gonna end up reading the pages and getting a good idea about my part in the presentation.

We're gonna be talking about High Gothic Architecture; my part is to bring a few examples of modern buildings that are based on Gothic Architecture and I guess I'm gonna elaborate about one of them and blab and stuff.

I'm so bored -,-

When I called Abdulla before going out I heard the guitar playing I bet that's why he's late >.<; ebil. I stopped playing my guitar so I would come to Cups and meet him here!

Anyway...

um..

okay I guess I'm gonna read about the stuff until I get bored.

Okay Abdulla is supposedly close. So let's see... it's 7:11pm now aaand we'll see when he gets here :>

*waits pointlessly and opens wikipedia..*

7:12 okay he's here. lol

I'm gonna go now.
Tschuss!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Real Heroes

Okay so I was actually about to start talking about lap tops in this post coz they're awesome and stuff.

Then a hero passed by; a real hero; a living, giving hero.
A real hero with normal yet actually "super" powers.


Thus, I have decided to talk about her a little.

This hero is a professor of mine here in GJU.


Professor Majd Al-Homoud.


I dunno if everyone else is as fond of her as I, but I believe she is the strongest, smartest, and most logical person I have ever met.

Umm how can I put this... Well you know those people who actually fit perfectly as a teacher and a mentor? She's exactly like that.

Amazing and most respectable thing about it is that she is like that in her own way.

She doesn't follow anything, she follow's her beliefs which she was taught as a child, and her holding on to that is just amazing and commendable to divine levels in my opinion.

I don't even know what to say anymore, there is just so much inspiration in me coz of her, she has brought back the inspiration in me to work more -unfortunately I'm still a lazy ass, for now-, she has the most vibrant yet calming aura, she stands tall among all the people in this country full of hypocrites and downers.

She is down to earth and straight-forward, her pep-talk is more powerful and more leading and comforting than that of lying politicians and oil-fiends.

Although she wears a hijab, she is more a free spirit than all of us.

Thank you, from the depths of my soul.

Showing my appreciation is the least I can do, especially for an ignorantly over-looked hero.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Good Times, Bad Times

You know how everytime you have fun/a good thing happen/a mildly happy mood you worry about how it's gonna bite you in the ass?

I experienced that first hand today.

Good stuff:

I got a laptop today!!

I went out today and had a good time [apart from the part involving the previous post]!



Bad stuff:

I'm worried sick about the design...

I thought I can work on design today but I can't coz I need the pictures printed and I couldn't do that.

I thought, in fact I knew, I had money with me but somehow I opened my wallet and BAM its empty :\


Anymore bummers about to happen to me soon?

I'm frikkin' scared of tomorrow's design, I feel I let my team down.


Cya

GO HOME, KID!!

OH MY CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSAAAAAAAGAAAAAAAAAAGHHGGHGHGHGHGHHHHHHHHHH

GOSH DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


:'(


>:'o

YES HE'S GONE!!!!!!!!!!

Okay nevermind

Okay
He's a nice kid and all (some dude from university), but dammit SOME PEOPLE NEED TO SHUT UP AND KNOW WHEN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!

Him: "ngeheh ngehh ngahahahaaa intoo haik bitdallu a3deen? ngeheh"

Me: "*acts like he's focussing on something*........."

Him: "ngahahah durr I'm gonna clean my laptop and be a pain in the ass! ngheheh!"

Abdulla: "*Glares....* rawwe7!!"

Him: "ngeheh ana biddi adal ma3kom [7aram he's being sarcastic and thinks Abdulla is kidding, but deep down inside we all want the man to GO THE FUCK HOME!!]

But it's all safe now... all is good and peaceful again except for the fact that he might come back all of a sudden and ruin the "nice" day.

Sure you feel sad for him at times, but, dude you need to know your god damn l-i-m-i-t-s.


Just like a while ago while me and Abdulla were just schissing [sitting] around, and some magician dude came and sat with us and showed us some tricks (while successfully creating an awkward moment, which is a very common gift nowadays btw). He is skilled, but some dude you dunno isn't fun being around when he's interrupting your time with your friend [SPEED TIME!!! OH EMM GEE ZEE!!!], and then I didn't know what to say to him and Abdulla was creative enough to bring up common uni and "do-you-know-that-guy?"talk stuff.


Okay
I think I'm done.

ngheheh FUCK YOU AWKWARD/UNWANTED PEOPLE!

Okay now I'm done

PS credit to Abidaaaaaal sitting right next to me ^_^

Haii abidal!

Haii saaaad!

Keefak?

Fuck you *BEEP* [censorship of name; as you can see cursing is UNCENCORED HERE WHICH IS WHY QWAIDER DOESN'T WANT TO SPREAD MY BLOG]

Okay seriously, done now.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Double-you-tee-eff?

Okay so this thing pops up after almost every post that I post [lol].

And thing is that it doesn't even matter; it shows up after almost every post and I think "Oh crap I'm gonna have to rewrite that?!", but no I don't, my post is posted normally.

So why is this crap showing up?

It's annoying.





We're sorry, but we were unable to complete your request.

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Describe what you were doing when you got this error.
Provide the following error code and additional information.
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uri: /publish-confirmation.g

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EDIT: lol it just showed me that message again after I posted this post.

Ironic eh?

Flu/Cold

The Flu has to be one of the most annoying things to engage.

*sniff* Seriously.


And it's just a fucking pain when it just starts running down ur nose and you can't sniff it in again :\

Then you run out of tissues.

I have a little secret, I did wipe the excesses on my sleeve a few times >.< I just couldn't get any tissues and when it has to go, it goes.


I bet the frikkin' germs enjoy making us sneeze and stuff. It's probably like a season for them, too.

Kinda like "knocking down cows" or rolling them over or whatever, they have "sneeze a human" or something.

Orrrr orrrr.... okay that thought just disppeared.

I'm gonna go blow my nose now.

Creepy Mac

lol! Oh my goodness this cracked me up XDD

look at the part at 1:12 when he starts going "mmmmm mmmm mmmmm mmmm" then something that sounds like "kurika? kurika? kurika? kurika?" hahahahaha!

*plays it over and over*
What an idiot lol.

It made me wonder: "Who the fuck would do that?"









XD

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Edward Cullen

Still sucks and I'm biased against him.

KTHXBYE!!!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Funny Picture

Lol this is one of the smartest stuff I have seen XD

I have to share it.


















































Is that smart or what?! :D

Dear Supporters

Okay so this is for certain people I wish to talk to but can't address directly so why don't all of you just bring your fucking asses (and you're damn right I said fucking asses!) down here and read a little eh?
Anyhoo:


To Abdulla:

Abdallah Haj Abed said...
dude there are porn blogs they wouldn't even consider your blog to be banned


Wie kann mann die "porn blogs" finden? :P [bad grammar I'm guessing]

hahahahah
How can one find these "porn blogs"?
I never knew they had porn blogs, thanks for the tip :> .




To Farah (Konichiwa/Tiger):

Farah said...
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It's okay sade there's a million aggregators out there! but seriously which aggregator?

P.S. will you please remove word verification, I hate it!

oh and STFU! :D


Umm.. thank you for your support >.> ....?

Qwaider Planet *glares into the distance*

And listen here you over-grown wild cat! If you don't like the word verification, then shut the FUCK up! FYI: It prevents bots from hacking and posting spam on my blog :P (plus I'm too lazy to start looking around for the removing it thingy).




To Mousy (Amanda):

I am anti-Twilight, just for the fuck of it! So don't try persuading me!




To Random-People-Who-Read-My-Blog:

Do you actually read anything? Gosh you guys suck... Interact will ya?




To Qwaider-Man-Who-Read-My-Blog:

:(
Oh well, I understand.



Anyway, Cya!

OH SNAP!!

*gasps...!!!*


*GASPS!!*


Dear Saed
Thank you for your interest in ******* ****** [I cencored the name of the aggregator lol]
I'm affraid at this time I can't add your blog because it contains a lot of profane language which is inappropriate to the audience.

Sorry, and thanks again for your interest


:(


I'm profane!!!

Oh and I just thought of something, now that I posted this, I'm never getting to be on that aggregator's page lol

That's just harsh :(

Might as well curse and scream more "profanities" since I have nothing to lose.

Fucking fuck, shit, poop, blubber, splat, money shot, dickhead, dilhole, asshole, fuckface, fucknuts, balls, testicles, fuck, slut, whore, bitch, man-whore, granny, tranny, jackass, bondage, cunt, crap.


^_^ lol :>

That was fun.

Hey does anyone know if I'll get banned for this? :P

Music Shop

Music shops are fucking orgasmic!

All those electric guitars and drums and the acoustics hanging on the wall. *sighs..* wow...

Jacksons are fucking awesome.
Fenders are amazing, too, but the shop doesnt have great Fenders; they have Squires, but no electric Fenders.
Gibsons are amazing; my dream guitar is a Gibson Les Paul, mmmhh Les Pauls, with their sexy tight waists :>.

I love guitars.

And they have a Mapex drum kit upstairs at the entrance, it makes my eyes tear up. It's SOO awesome!

Gosh darn.

Here are some nice guitar pictures:

LOOK *swoons*









Wonderful aren't they?!





Some Jacksons:

Look at those bodies









Gahhh



Anyway I had to share those images.

Bye \m/

Friday, November 14, 2008

Growing Up

Growing up sucks.

You have all the life and spirit inside you snuffed out such that you could become a pathetic slave for a government and other dominators.

I hope I die before I become such a tool.

Freedom is a word thrown around too much lately. Freedom now is choosing from the options you are given. Everything indirectly foces you into one thing and then you get told that you are completely free.

Just like we are free to do anything we want as long as it does not go against religion, and as long as it does not go against the government. Basically you can do anything that has already been done just so that you can make yourself feel useful and superior to those in the inferior country.

I am angry at everything in the world right now, except my friends.


Fuck people.
Fuck mainstreamers.
Fuck loneliness and how pathetic it makes people.
Fuck mankind and their want to keep living on. We are a dominating, horrible, selfish, gluttonous species.
Fuck all the politicians that people become when they grow up.
Fuck all their lies and everything they do to make people flow in a one-way street to eternal spiritual torment.
Fuck dominating and submissive people.
Fuck how confusing everything becomes as you grow up.
Fuck how people even complicate sex into an ugly process, just coz they're too afraid to be themselves.
Fuck how women are still seen as slaves in this cunt of a country.
Fuck how men are still expected to take care of everything though they are weaker .
Fuck how women are ungrateful for the freedom they have and still choose to be a man's slave.
Fuck how men are soul-less horny animals with no mind to think of their actions.
Fuck how people ruined every single thing there is in one way or another.
Fuck how people always tend to be able to steal something and make it weaker and horrible and a fucking tool of brainwash.
Fuck how people manipulate everything and ruin everything for you.
Fuck how hypocricy is in everyone's blood no matter what they do.

Judas Priest




This is such an amazing song by Judas Priest; Diamonds and Rust. Much much better than the original album version.

You should also listen to those songs by Judas Priest, pure musical orgasm:
Angel
Exiled
Blood Red Skies
Demonizer
Judas Rising
Alone


They're my favourites. There are other ones that are heavier of course.

A friend told me that Iron Maiden [heavy metal legends] covered Judas Priest. Can you grasp the greatness of Judas Priest now?

I had to share this.
\m/ HAIL!!!

Headache

GOSH I have the worst headache!

It's so fucking annoying, you feel your brain boggle [lol] around each time you look around or move your head.

I don't like taking painkillers but I do take them usually. But I sometimes get a bit paranoid about my health and feel bad about letting my body get used to not being able to take care of pain and diseases, but rather get used to taking drugs (as in pills) to be aided the whole time.

I think all those pills get us too umm.. weak.

Depending on anything else than yourself usually gets you too weak to take care of yourself. Psychologically and physically, and probably infrastructurally.


Meh my head hurts I'm gonna go sleep.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Self-Destruct

We all have that urge to destroy everything around us, I believe that. That urge is misdirected at ourselves -due to our humanity, maybe- making us self-destruct.

At the highs we all disregard the good and look down at others, at our lows we despise the greater. I don't know why; maybe we just want to be in that high the whole time, not knowing what the highs bring; self-destruction.

When we feel useless, we all wish to make a meaning for ourselves. Sometimes you feel meaningless and pointless such that you wish to destroy others such that to prove yourself as existing; I guess maybe the other type of people choose to be nice and take themselves out rather than infamously being themselves.

Then again you don't even feel powerful enough to do neither, I guess that's pretty bad. No positives to keep you happy and no negativity to get some positives to help yourself out.

Then you feel useful again, spiritually, when you find that other someone that seems to make you feel like you're something. Then they go and you feel useless and negative again; needing to destroy it all.

Dunno why I'm saying this. My thoughts slowly fade away and nothing but the useless words trying to scream out remain. Meaningless scribbles connected together trying to make something meaningful out of themselves. Poor things are being used by me though and little do they know that they are being wasted into an empty, energyless post on an unread blog in a vast area.

Hmm... Anyway, I do not know why all that came out. I guess it's a sort of a yet unspoken vent.

D:

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!?!? I POSTED LIKE 2 POSTS AND I ADDED A FRIKKIN POLL!!!!!!

THEY'RE ALL GONE!!!!!

EDIT:

Nevermind now I can see them again >.> ...

panic attack over

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Villains

So my sister is watching "The Dark Knight" and it was just that part when Alfred says the story about the thief and how "...some men just want to watch the worl burn".


It's really interesting; a bit amazing even.

I really love villains. They are the most interesting people ever.

I mean it's quite amazing to see all the negative energy that people let out into everything around them come to bite them in the ass.

But I hate Voldemort, he's a dildo of a villain. His concept is too weak; then again I just despise Harry Potter very much, yet to a certain level (coz the movies are entertaining, but I dunno).

Hmm... Let's see.. The Joker [from The Dark Knight]; The Sandman [from Spiderman] isn't an awesome villain but I just like the scene in which he gets formed it's pretty awesome, emotional even; hmm who else is there... I dunno, can't think of any right now...


Think about it, people go around being nice and all, you know it isn't balanced that way; there's always a flipside.

Perfection is boring.
Heaven is boring.
Hell is probably not fun either lol; but you get my point.

But seriously; heaven has no villains :\ unless another angel decides to be a pain in the ass and disrespect humans hahah; oh what will the miserable blessed do!

I dunno why, but I've been through a lotta times that made me wanna watch the world burn, I'm sure everyone else did, too. I have to admit though, it's a bit nice feeling like nothing matters at all such that it causes you to be whatever the fuck you are and not care about anything at all.

I dunno why but I wanted to say that stuff.

Bye now.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Oh Fu-... Lucknuts..!

Am I cursing too much in my posts..?

I think that if I wanna make my blog more accessible, approachable, "readable, "advertis-able" or "aggregate-able" - or whatever the fuck the last one is called-, I might have to cut down on cursing.

Then again come on I don't curse that much do I...?

And I think that my blog has many good things to feed your mind and make you think in that way that annoys the crap out of you. Though there are random bits of me here and there. But then again all I am is a bunch of random bits from all over that made me who I am. Same with my blog. And seeing something/someone in the light of reality, just raw, honest, and speaking his mind is really good in my opinion coz everyone has those layers, balancing facades, structures, decorations and engine rooms.

Parents should take the blame for how their kids are [and how much they curse] more often, I think (I don't blame my parents or anything coz I curse coz I like to, I control myself when I need to).

Bad structures + continuation of growth theoretically = bad bulding

Bad structures + improvised growth = Beautiful/"artistic" building or a fuck-up


Like when they say "HEAVY METAL MAKES PEOPLE WORSHIP THE GAWD DARN DEBIL!! LAWWWD!!"

Ermmm... How about you teach your kids some frikkin' m-o-r-a-l-s you j-a-c-k-a-s-s, then they'd be able to t-h-i-n-k.

...Or you can brainwash them (which for some means: beat them silly.. sad) well enough that they wouldn't stray hahah.

I like my blog :>

Thought Trailer

*sigh*

Crushes suck ass.

Especially when you're yougner and end up thinking you're in love and all lol.

I talked to a few people online who liked people and I believed they're all curshes and stuff, but meh, remembering how it was with me, it was pretty sucky. Weird how when you grow up you don't feel that stuff anymore (or rather oppress them). I think it's just a really needy need for a relation-shit.

Meh I dunno.

I hate relationships. They suck, too.

Requires too much thinking really. I dunno it annoys me.

And the last time I dated someone I ended up with an inadequate attention span to understand what she was saying on the phone, but she was pretty cute and sweet though. That was not inspiring at all.

My attention span has been wayyy off lately :\ hm..

I think attention depends on moods, too. Was that pointing out the obvious? I dunno.

Well for me everything depends on my mood since I'm moody and all.

But what does the mood depend on? hmmm....

Yeah pretty interesting.

Everything in the world seems like it's just spun out by a bunch of random movements and manipulations and discoveries, just like typos, mishaps, pen/ink spills, and unwanted pregnancies.

Okay I don't think I'm fit to be creating blog posts today coz they might just be completely random or just thought trailiers [as in posts that are trails of thoughts, thought this is catchy >.>].

Okay bye.

Real

Lookie
Lookie

Those are hilarious web comics, genius.

As much as I hate spreading them around coz they would make some airheads laugh at them like they get it or get the wits behind it and then fake their way as fans and stuff (I don't mean to generalize, but you get my point).

I like people who like things I like but also respect them. It gives me a fuzzy good feeling when I talk to someone who has the entire discography of Opeth, Led Zeppelin, or Nirvana due to the fact that he/she likes them. Especially if they downloaded them all -or bought them all (wish I could buy all the original records, wow)- coz they like them not coz they were trying them out and downloaded it all and just kept it for the fun of it; some dude I met once said he has the discography of a fuck-a-billion bands and crap, and that he had so many songs and albums that he has 3 or 2 hard drives full of them *COUGH* BULLSHIT *COUGH*.

I find it amazing to be able to be real.

Being You, and being honest is a wonderful thing. I think most of us lie sooner or later; to the closer or farther people we know.
I'm not talking abotu the dumb things, not the material things. But the things that involve the reality of each person; each person's aura clashes with the other's and you interact and to make it balance out you just have to submit or dominate.

Each person being real could not always be good since someone has to lose; comic reliefs, jokers, slaves.

I very much dislike that. Sometimes you just do not know where you stand. Are you gonna dominate or submit, lie or say the truth. It's a very complicated yet simple process.

It's sad from a third person's perspective, and even worse when you're submitting or dominating. I dislike it all.

I dunno where I reached coz my thoughts just got cut out. No idea where I'm going anymore. Take what you can I guess. Or just go fuck yourself.

Anyway..

Being real is very admirable in my opinion. But see it's almost hypocritical that you have to dominate then submit to others [which balances out] but it's pretty messy when it all intertwines and ends up with people hating and arguing and bla bla bla.

That is probably why religions are used to control this mixing of auras. It governs it. At the same time it opresses it; it kills the balancing forces and creates boredom and lifeless living; non-flowing, boring, heavenly balance.

I dunno what else to say I'm a bit distracted.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Building and Construction

MUAHAHAHA

I'm posting during my Building And Construcion lecture lol I have some posts written down which I'm gonna post later when I get home.

XD ooooh I feel so badass :P


Anyway cya.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

BOMBS AWAY!!

I let out some sinkers to take on the dirty underworld today!!

Wish my boys luck


lol

Sex And The City

Okay I dunno how many can relate to this...

But nothing at all can be more awkward than watching the show Sex And The City with your family.

Seriously...!

So I'm hungry and I wanna eat and then go work my ass off, I get my plate and sit at the coffee table in the living room.
"Hey, what are you gonna watch?"
"Sex And The City"
"Oh okay, cool"

..Of course at that moment I automatically start thinking about how fast I can gobble a deep plate full of fetuccini [no idea how you spell that].

It's so fucking awkward!!

The show is like women's porn -basically- and I'm just sitting there face down in my plate almost about to throw up coz I'm eating so fast.

It starts off normally and they're talking then BAM they're talking about sex, sex positions, clits, cocks, and vaginas.

I mean I'm all for sexual freedom and independence of women. But when it comes to watching it while my family is present, then NO, thank you very much.

Then the sex scenes start and everyone is having orgasms and fucking so on and that darn plate just won't effing finish! And you can't even laugh it off/away.

It's awkward and annoying lol.


A friend and I were talking about it once and he said that for some reason the sex scenes are a bit disturbing hahah. I can't help but agree. I'm like, "yeah, try being around your family while you watch it".

I don't like Sex And The City, I prefer regular porn lol. I mean sure there's relationship insight, but fuck off I don't like it, nor do I like relationship insight in the form of pornography.

Anyway I'm just gonna go back to work, now.

Bye!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Eric Clapton... and moving from there.

On a serious and more amazing and perhaps holy note:
Watch that fucking links NAO!

Eric Clapton shows some guitar skills


Eric Clapton - Layla (Live)


I really mean that.

I have always heard of Eric Clapton being a legend and an inspiration for many legends even, but I have never heard many pieces by him. I only heard tears from heaven. But I am now focused on listening to all of his songs [after I maybe get a laptop which i'll be able to download onto].

That clip is passion, people. That is art. That is music.

Look at that! Listen to the sound! It could break me down and put me back together at once. The blues! The energy! The fucking emotion flowing in this man's hands! You can just feel it!

My list of favourite bands ever [like the ones which nothing could EVER beat]: Nirvana, Led Zeppelin, Opeth, and now Eric Clapton seems to be very close to going in there; I just feel it.

These bands send a surge of energy into me; whether it's angry, sad, happy, hyper, psychotic. That is music for me. That is passionate work. That is art. That is what life is all about.

Guitar solos, oh my goodness.... listen to Led Zeppelin's Stairway To Heaven, listen to Opeth's Hours Of Wealth, listen to Nirvana's Oh Me, listen to The Beatles's While My Guitar Gently Weeps, listen to Iron Maiden's Powerslave Listen to that amazing sound...

Listen to the song as a whole, listen to the guitars, everything... and when you get to the solos just breathe and take it all in.. feel it all [shh pervs XD]...

That's passion.. that's music...

It's so sad, SO sad, how little it is that you find this kind of energy and passion lately.

Pop music, pop rock *gags*, rap, hip hop, techno, dance.... all that fucking crap is not music I despise that stuff more and more each time I hear a passionate guitar solo that cries louder than a fucking army of people crying.

It's pathetic what we call music lately... synthesized crap talking about things that make people insecure and materialistic and pathetic and dumb and annoying and dimwitted and dependent.



I Love Music, stop fucking it up and insulting it.



Here's to Nirvana, Led Zeppelin, Opeth, and Eric Clapton [for inspiring me again]

OMGZ SPORKS!!!!

Okay well this is for a special request by Lissa :)

Far as I know, Lissa is some random blonde at heart girl friends with a close friend of mine.


Anyway. Lookie!

From wikipedia:
A spork is a hybrid form of cutlery taking the form of a spoon-like shallow scoop with the addition of the tines of a fork (usually three or four). Spork-like utensils have been manufactured since at least the late 1800s; patents for spork-like designs date back to at least 1874 and the word "spork" was registered as a trademark both in the U.S. and the UK decades later. Sporks are offered in both re-usable and disposable form and are quite versatile. They are commonly used by fast food restaurants, schools, prisons, and backpackers.


Okay so what they wanna say is that it's a spoon mixed with a fork. lawl.

Handy isn't it?



This work of the heavenly [and maybe bored] angels, is a blessing.

Prisoners cant stab deep with it... and I guess neither can school students.

Heaven uses it, as well. They don't want anymore "Satans" being made if you know what I mean. That is quite draining; it is a fact that Satan started the war by stabbing Adam in the thigh with a fork.

You know when you're gonna go eat at the television coz you're all alone [poor you] and hungry? And you don't feel like carrying a whole set of cutlery?

BAM SPORK!!!!

And now you're not so lonely anymore!

*snickers*

You know honestly I really like forks most coz u can cut and pick stuff up and poke with them. And hey you can stab with them, too.

But alas, no soup for you with that fork.

BUT YES YOU CAN WITH A SPORK!

lol so a spork is like an Obama, and people are still hoping for the best with nothing but a fork or a spoon, like people who wanted [not wanted wanted, just wanted.. gosh pervs] McCain.

Makes sense?

Okay well that was fun. Tschuss. :)

Arf..?!

Hahah ummm sooo.... I don't ahve any tracing paper sooo tomorrow is gonna be busy busy busy >.< I gotta trace a shitload of crap and then draw like 2 or 3 more drawings.

I decided that I will not do the perspective drawings coz I am not in the mood and they can go fuck themselves reaaalllly realllllyy hard; like fuck themselves hard enough to bleed [sorry for the graphic nature].

Um.... now I'm really shocked coz I feel like I'm done... Am I..? I doubt it :\ I really do :\

P.S. I know this is annyoing but as soon as this project is over we can all start talking about a fun topic like spoons or stickers.

Lol blogs are fun

Friday, November 7, 2008

Panic

...Okay so now I'm panicky again... And wasting my time on here posting over and over...


:(....


It's 11:27pm and I dunno I'm like fixed down by my own self...

A day or 2 ago I was willing to work... I don't feel like it at all now I don't even feel like pushing myself..... I'm gonna work tomorrow morning I think...

Coz I'm really really scared and worried... but I'm just being pointless hating it and whining like a kid...

I hate it when I'm like this. I need to pull myself together I feel like a lazy, spoilt brat, which I hate.

This sucks ass...

Like really badly...

Hmm....

O.O


Scary shit


You know how one might theorize that fear is the way to control humans?

It's pretty interesting what humans reached after worshipping nothing but idle planets and stars and such things.

A lot of things make you wonder about your beliefs after you consider things/people/gods trying to gain control over you; sometimes it could just be nothing you know? Think about it.

I hope not to offend people, but consider this:
If a kid saw that while growing up being told by many about how god is the protagonist and is against satan, they'd definately be willing to follow god's religions. Why? Well coz he's against satan's meanie meanie ways of course!

And you know how things that scare you as a kid go quite a long way eh?

Such as people who were burnt as kids, they hate fire. So on and so forth.

That video is enough to scare an adult lol, look at that creepy stuff. Look at how cute the design of the "humans" are.

Mean/creepy/scary thing hurting cute things creates hate for the mean thing.
White sweet loving thing that goes against the mean thing creats liking of the white thingy.

Psychology.
Brainwash.
Growing up.
"Education".


Again I really don't want to offend people. I'm speaking my mind.

Gosh I felt sad for the cute thingies with their sounds :( lol

Friends

:) I love them



From the old ones to the new ones to the online ones.

You all make my day.


I don't wanna say names, you all know who you guys are really, big brothers, twins, baby sisters, fruits, animals, medical drop outs [HINTS HINTS YES THAT WAS YOU I WAS TALKING ABOUT] lol.


This one is for you all.

The other week [before I had that fucknut homework!!!] me and a friend were sitting down and I have had a good day at the time [which bit me back as karma in the form of a FRIKKIN BUILDING DESIGN]. I really felt blessed.

I have a great supportive family, I have good teachers, I go to a university, I eat good food, bla bla bla.

Each one of you guys just makes the good things a lot better.

Yeah there are ups and downs things in each relationship, but you step in to help me out [not takling about all of you here, only the close ones stepped in a lot of the time]. I was bullied at some point during school and I made it coz I always had you guys. I got in trouble sometimes by making dumb choices, and you were there. You might not be here but I know you are there. I know you are all there, I love that you all are there for me.

You cheer me up, you make me happy sometimes that I actually do forget about the bad things currently going on [at that moment], I never would be where I am without you all [don't flatter yourself this isn't for you there are others who I won't show this post to].

Anyway...

This is just a thank you for all the people who made me who I am today. All of you.

I Thank you all.

P.S. If you think this is cheesy -which it is- I don't care, I felt like I owe it to certain people..

:) this is me smiling to the certain people

Your goal in life...

..How do you know it...?

Do you follow what you can do or what you want to do...?

I can draw, I can play the guitar -and I think I can get even better at it-, I can think, and I believe that I can create concepts and build upon it in any way possible if I want to...

But what do I want?

I believe that anyone can do whatever the hell they want in their life.
Sure everyone has their own gift at birth -or rather they recieve it while growing up due to their surrounding influences-, but are we all forced to follow this subconscious, implanted fate that our childhood's vulnerability has already laid out for us?

I can draw pretty well, and I think due to playing on my dad's drum kit once as a kid and having a lot of music playing while i was growing up, I have a tad of a musical hint in me. And growing up in an open-minded household and certain events, I thought a lot and ended up getting another gift.

Okay so after that blabber here is my point:
I can be a writer, I can be an artist, an architect, a designer, a musician, a model if i choose to work out enough, a pornstar even lol... it all depends on what I want... what we want...
But I really have absolutely no idea about that. How can you know what you want to do..?

With everything we are surrounded by in our life, we are nothing but a brainwashed generation, being driven by everything around us; as even the closest and most influencial people in our lives are, in fact, also being tugged and rolled in the sea of contradictions brought forth by mankind.

Some tell you to follow your impossible dreams, which is counter-attacked by an opressive location which does not offer opportunities.

Some tell you it's about the money, but what's the point of money really..? I believe sooner or later everyone will realize how money is worthless on it's own, it is only useful if {someone special is/or good friends are} there for you to waste them on.

It only takes a lot [a LOT] of work to get it... misery in the beginning balances out by the joy in the end; a free wonderful spirit comes with a lack of material things; a rich man with the material world comes with a soulless gollum breeding a little tame gremlin to take on his misery.

Of course those were extremes...

It still does not ease the process of choosing what you want, does it?...

Maybe this confusion will be balanced out with a clear vision of my life later. I believe so.

But how do you know you are not going to screw your life up...?

Gah there are just too many thoughts on my mind right now... [INCLUDING THE DAMN 22 DRAWINGS!!]

I guess sooner or later I'll find out what I will do, then again I think I'm just telling myself that to try and ease this annoyance.. ._.

Procrastination!

Alright so I just wasted a bunch of time making this blog and filling in "about me" and all that load of stuffers.

Then I think:
"OH CRAP! I HAVE TO TURN IN 1378269410 DRAWINGS ON MONDAY!!" lol, well they're 22 drawings :P, anyway ..... *continues staring aimlessly at the screen and typing away at his new -and first- blog, which he is excited about like a 13-year-old is excited about porn...* "Oh gosh i'm so scared..." *keeps typing.....*

That, my fellow bloggers, is procrastination.

And if anyone says that procrastination is evil, don't listen! Because the only evil thing is the frikkin' 22 drawings!! A-r-c-h-i-t-e-c-t-u-r-e is evil, people..!!

And ironically, this quote made masurbation a bad technique of procrastinating due to this quote spoling it for me: "Procrastination is like masturbation, it's fun at the beginning until you realize you're fucking yourself".

Was that inappropriate?

Dammit! I'm just gonna go work now! :'(

Wow, blogs are fun, that was entertaining! lol

Oh and hey check out this drawing I found on my photobucket account [yes, I drew it :)].

http://i156.photobucket.com/albums/t30/yayowww/Worriorsketch.jpg

I just put the link since I put the [IMG] one but it didn't work.