Friday, January 30, 2009

Problems

Problems problems problems problems problems.

Problems problems problems problems problems problems problems problems!!!!!

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Problems?

Problems problems problems.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

OOOH!!!!! YAAYY!!!

Okay this is gonna sound weird lol, but I was looking and my FeedJT or whatever its called and I saw that some people actually seeked out my blog by googling "endless nameless blog", they were from Romania and Spain.

So fucking awesome!! :D
I'm so proud!!

Could it be that I'm going global?! :o


Some fun questions to answer

First thanks to "suha" coz I saw the stuff on a post over there.

Anyway...


Place you hate the most?
Never thought of this one, but I guess it's any place with close-minded people who stare a lot.


Where were you born?
Amman


Most romantic pick up line?
Bend over hahah.


If you could say one sentence to your loved in your last breath what would it be?
You bitch did you do this to me?!


Give birth or kicked in the balls?
Give birth since I can't do it ever.


Write something weird about yourself?
I am fucking insane!! (and moody >.>)


Your favorite body part (in the opposite sex)?
I'm an ass person :>


When dismantling a bomb, would you cut the yellow wire or the black wire?
YELLOW, coz I like black.


What kind of car do you drive?
I don't drive yet.


Do you want a man to be on your roof?
Lol no why the hell would I want that?


Do you ever wonder why Smurfette wa the only female Smurf?
I never wondered and honestly it's a bit creepy to think of it. I bet she's the town whore.


Britney or Christina (who is more talented)?
Not my kind of music in any way.


Re-Live your childhood? What would you change?
Nothing at all I guess, oh I would have kept my dad's old drum kit. :D


Are you a Man or Woman?
Woman -.-


Finish this sentence “The way you smile”…:
is making me ho'ny baby yeahh!!


Favorite videogame moment?
Oh that HAS to be when Arthas from Warcraft III kills his father, and the other moment when he takes over the frozen throne and puts on the Lich King's helmet thingy. Fucking awesome I swear.
Here it is.
Lookie


Would you give your number to anyone that looks good?
Well yeah coz it almost never happens. (and only if it's a girl)


OLD SKOOL R.KELLY OR NEW SKOOL R.KELLY?
Fuck you and fuck him.


What drugs have you tried?
Panadol, Advil, cigarettes, and alcohol. Aren't all those considered drugs?


If you had to make a movie about your life what would it be called?
The Movie About Saed's Life


If you fell off a cliff what would be your last thought?
FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-


Describe your evil twin:
I'm the evil twin dammit!


What is your favorite kind of cheese?
Mozerella [sp?], Kashkawan!!


What you dislike most about the general public is?
How they're all judgmental airheads, and the men are stereotypical people who see long hair as something for WOMEN.


When was the last time you cried?
I dunno, when I listened to Electric Tears - Buckethead for the first time I think?


Your choice of weapon?
A Samurai sword, or an awesome looking staff [no sexual pun intended]


What is your favorite flower?
I dunno but I like those Ivy plants that grow on walls a lot.


Read the book or watch the movie?
If we're talking about Twilight: none
Anything else: it depends


Favorite singer?
Robert Plant and Kurt Cobain definately, best vocalists ever.


How many people does it take to screw in a light bulb?
One person, stop being a dumbass, MAYBE two in extreme cases, so that she/he can hand you the new lightbulb.


What attracts you most?
Cunt juices!! looooooooooool
I'm sorry I had to say that hahah.


If you won the lottery, how would you spend your money?
Get an art studio, learn to use oil colors, make a band room and buy drums and guitars and bass guitars and stuff, and travel.


Have you ever been in love?
Yes. Fuck you and Fuck love!! D:


Do you like flour?
Yeah, they make bread and other stuff with it, it's handy.


Best pick up line?
Walek 5araaki ma3joon snaani.


How expensive is your phone bill?
Not Expensive, I use those credits stuff.




Hahah, that was fun >.<

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

University e-mails

Dear Employee-who-sends-a-shitload-of-emails-to-everyone-at-uni,

Why the hell do you send us the cafeteria menu 5000 fucking times?!

And why are you so damn lazy to just copy and paste it directly WITHOUT putting those million things and lines about who is receiving the e-mail and crap.

YOU GET ON MY NERVES [as trivial as the problem is]

Why in the fucking world would you send a menu 5 times? And why can't you title the e-mail? Lazy jackass...

Can you please, for fuck's sake, just copy and paste things into the e-mail DIRECTLY instead of forcing us to download an UNTITLED ATTATCHMENT only to find out that it is completely pointless and does not involve us.

You are a dumbass.


Fuck you,



Saed Tillawi

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Weird

It's been a while since any of the blogs of friends of mine have been updated it's like I'm talking to myself now lol.

Shoo sa3ed shul a5bar?
Tamam walla MINTAK BIL DE-FUCKING-SIGN!!!!!!
Walla same, man. I'm screwed.
Aren't we all.
Yes.
So what's up?
Blogging, you know, bored, SCREWED.
Same... same...

I know that was probably annoying for you lol.

Ohhhh wellll.

I wouldn't be annoying you if I had other blogs to look at!!

Eh...

Damn alligators [aggregators] not liking profanities...

*stops and stares*
*looks around himself...*

OH I finished the design model but the house was out of my reach apparently coz the steel wasnt enough and would take too long so I'm back to drawing now. Yay me >.> .

Buckethead kicks ass.

Okay this is pointless I'm gonna shut up now.

Bye.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

:(

Backfire.

What'd I tell ya'?

Stupid design model...

Stupid steel...

I am so frikkin' annoyed right now...

I have only a few more days [3 exactly, starting tomorrow] for the drawings completion, and I have a History of Architecture II test on sunday.

I'm sick of the stress :\

There I was all happy with the model's contour being completed then BAM I'm screwed...

I am soooooo screwed...

I hate good stuff that happen. They never last and they never bring any extra good afterwards; or they drain another part of your life in order to stay.

Even the good has its flaws.


I guess it's just gonna drain me but it will work out in a good way somehow then re-screw me over.

.... Fun fun fun... :\




Oh and look at this picture of Kurt Cobain, it's so expressive and powerful.












Anyway, bye.

:)

I am glad to be a balanced person... for now. lol.

Mentally destorted and maybe physically too but I'm glad to be who I am.

Imperfection is wonderful when perfected. I'm not saying I have anything perfected, but there comes that point when you feel you are at a balanced state and that you are kinda happy and stuff.

It's scary, though, when you start considering what is going to happen to throw you off balance and screw you over. :\

I think that's all I wanna say.

I need to pee.

Okay now I'm done.
Bye.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-













[lol I love this picture]


Currently, my brain is bobbing around and floating in a sea of mucus.

My head is fucking KILLING ME!! D:

I just wanted to say that >.>



looool here's a fun fucked up fact XD

[c=13]Alissa is my bestest friend!!![/c=6] says:
Oh raj wanan know what i learned today?
[c=13]Alissa is my bestest friend!!![/c=6] says:
well ima tell you anways
[c=13]Alissa is my bestest friend!!![/c=6] says:
in aceient egypt to prevernt pragancies ya know what they did?
Sa3ed says:
what'd they do?
[c=13]Alissa is my bestest friend!!![/c=6] says:
the stuff crocidle shit up.. there.. you know..



bye now *goes to pop pills*

Nothing to see here

Okay so apparently I posted something by mistake while writing some other post >.>

So just ignore this...
Move along

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Dear Youth,

Beating old men and women... People who created life and built land...
Killing children and wasting the blood...
Murder...
Massacre...
Death...
Bloodbaths...



Enough is enough!!!

Enough is enough...!!!


We feel for their death... Arabs felt for their 9/11 massacre... And they feel none for us...


Awake and arise, my brothers and sisters...

Awake and fight back...
قوموا
قوموا و حاربوا

Enough is enough.......


Stop drinking and eating the blood and flesh of your brothers and sisters... We peel away at the flesh of the arising life of the future...

When will the people remember it all...?

We are hated for the extremists' work... Forget the extremists... We will infiltrate them and cut off their supplies...

... Let's do something... We are so attracted to being liked that we ignore ourselves and our people...
Go clubbing... drink alcohol... drink coffee... drink but do something...

Hear me out...

Stop it... we can do something...

Addicted to fleshy meat, get addicted to something else... Jordan evolved and can provide...

Do you have to show yourself as a "cool" person?
Do you have to go to where all the idolized murdurers go?

FIGHT...
You do not have to be hurt in order to fight...
We all feel something... so do something... our 6 million simple efforts will create one gigantic creation...
Please... don't tell me we actually gained something from the protesting and breaking of our own country's resources... Why don't we break them in other ways...?

You all just thought to attack recklessly hoping to get away from reality of your own hell...

"Yay! Let's all be dolls and react the same way as everyone and make an appearance!"

That "protest" was nothing but an outlet of the youth's anger towards the things in their life... We know it, but we do not realize that we do know it... it was not a protest against the murder, the blood, the agony, the destruction, and the genocide against the Arabs...

If they are unaware, we shall not follow their ignorant self-involved form...
We all want individuality, I want individuality, and I am an individual, in my own individual way... not in their way...

Don't be ignorant like them... stop it... just stop...

Seriously though, why? Is it cool? Are you that ignorant? Are you a sheep? Follow the Red, White, and Blue as they support death?

Take the "right" things from them, not the ugly...
Okay... style and music and individuality... but why take their ignorance..?

Why do we forget who we are?
Nowadays, Arabic is uncool due to the brainwash of people by the West.

Do we not think?

I think, and I am damn proud.

Think!
Be!
Be you!
Be an individual!
Be who you are!


Some people don't understand, but individuality does not mean you do not belong into the United Hated Arab Association.

Arabs are hated, why should we show ourselves as people who do not think?
Yes, we are hated sometimes coz of the people who are taken lightly due to their mindless following of the common and the pointless.

I think, so I am.

Think!


Why do we allow ourselves to be brainwashed?


Be strong and hang in there!
Fight without blood!

We can starve their economy...

Stop trying to be cool and think...

Rock music through to heavy and extreme metal music is about thinking, not about following mindlessly and taking the bad.
Read between the lines and understand the mind behind it all.


Boycott them, we have substitutes...

Why don't we break down a Starbucks cafe instead of breaking a man's car during a protest driven completely by teenage angst and hate of opression?

Why don't we fight back as humans?
Why do we like to show off our physical strength and clarify that our spirits are broken and that our bodies are lifeless?

Let your anger out in the right direction and in the right way...
Rebel against something real... not against the thing that is easily and (luckily) easily done, but against something that is there...

Think before you attack...

Measure twice and cut once...


From a free-thinking mind, a real mind, a free-bird, a disappointee...
Think...

Love, anger, and disappointment,
Saed Tillawi



P.S. I have not typed any profanities hoping that I will be heard and maybe even understood.

Have a real day.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

I had a dream, ...

... and in that dream I saw Kurt Cobain!! Lol

Who knew, I was napping and there he was! I think, THINK a friend of mine was there, and Courtney Love.
:D

It was so weird, and I played on his guitar.

And that's all I remember. It was pretty cool :>

I once dreamt about Nirvana before, too lol; I remember them being in an outdoor glass room performing and stuff.


Okay that's all I'm done now.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Angel Monster

Amazing emotional song by Buckethead. From the album Electric Tears.





Enjoy.

Friday, January 2, 2009

*Sigh....*

I love my friends, thank you all for everything [and for the tiny vodkas Farah :D] :), I dunno where I would be without you.

I'm scared of how all that positive energy is gonna balance out negatively, though.



I love Final Fantasy IX's soundtrack it's amazing.

These songs makes me think a lot... I love them...

Reminds me of all the heartbreak, the love, the life, the death, the old, the new, the horrors and the crimes, the wonders and the miracles....


Listen to those songs, if you may....

[they're all from Final Fantasy IX's soundtrack]

Think....


Passing Sorrow





Song of Memories





Place of Memories




You Are Not Alone





Loss of Me



A Face Unforgotten





Terra





Village of Dali





Bittersweet Romance




Tragic Love






Life/Love/The human heart is a weird thing.... so weird...

One second you think of something/someone the next second you're thinking of someone else, then you're heartbroken, then you don't believe in love, then you do when you have that someone, then you don't again after you are heartbroken...

It's a weird fucked up cycle...

It gets so complex each time that you never even realize the similarity between all of the experiences all of us humans go through...

Oh life...

So much yet nothing...

The lies and illusions we survive... So much we go through...

We love it... Coz there is so much love in the healing from each experience...

Oh friends...

The healing of our troubles and the curse of our advancement...


Heh heh.... I think I remember this correctly...

"Eat drink and be merry, For tomorrow we die."
-William Shakespear


Here's to all my friends, here's to the love and the agony of life, here's to the pains of survival, here's to the aching of love, here's to hate and anger, here's to all emotions, here's to forgiveness, here's to passion, here's to the dying souls who appreciate life, here's to freedom which, without it, our lives are meaningless, here's to the sweet and healing remedy of death, here's to the bitter and burning taste of life, here's to the cries of the planet, here's to alcohol, here's to the attainable wings, here's to the unattainable love, here's to the inexcusable mistake, here's to the swift blade of heartbreak, here's to the inexisting, fake, acidic glue of heartbreak, here's to our imperfection...

Here's to us...




Cheers...




Pandemonium

NIRVANA!!!!

:D





Cheers!! For freedom, good music, punk rock, and REAL ROCK!!!

Mistakes

Mistakes happen....

People overreact to them.

Some people are so heavenly, and they know it such that they expect everything to be as good as they are...

Nothing is good enough for those people.
They don't appreciate imperfection and the inner emotions involved with living with it.
They don't understand that things don't just fucking happen.

You can't try enough for them.
You can't be strong enough for them.
You can't be you, you have to be what they want you to be.
You can't rethink your words or you would be a wimp.
You can't speak your mind coz of course all that you say is wrong.
You can't speak coz your words are all jumbled as they pass through that sheet of illogical logic.
You can't say your honest opinion as their ability to guilt you into any direction is unbelievable.

But you can't but feel things for them.


I have my pride...


I am imperfect, I make mistakes, take me for my imperfection and forgive my honest mistakes or go find your prince charming.

See how charming the prince is without a Devil to compare him to.

One day the Devil will be gone and we will recreate him. We recreate the "devil" in ourselves, because we would miss how it was when he was here and created balance.

How does the Devil feel being lonely and seen only as an omen of horrors? The person who decided to not follow the rest and rebel and be himself, and just for making an independent choice and being himself, he was sent away from the others and left to rot.

Hate the different and the imperfect..
Hate whatever isn't following your rules..
Hate the abnormal and paranoid..
Hate the insecure..
Hate everything you can't understand..


Die Dead Enough - Megadeth

It's twilight and I wake up hot
My body's soaked in a cold, cold sweat
I re-enact the lurid scenes
And clawed engravings in my head

Oh, I can't punch hard enough (and I run)
I can't kick high enough (and I run)
I can't shoot straight enough (and I run)
I can't hold on enough (and I run)
Oh, I can't stay down enough (and I run)
I can't take pain enough (and I run)
I can't bleed fast enough
I can't die dead enough

The air is thick, but the oxygen's thin
My heart is beating like a drum (boom!)
And ice is flowing through my veins
Explosives on my lips and in my lungs

Oh, I can't punch hard enough (and I run)
I can't kick high enough (and I run)
I can't shoot straight enough (and I run)
I can't hold on enough (and I run)
Oh, I can't stay down enough (and I run)
I can't take pain enough (and I run)
I can't bleed fast enough
I can't die dead enough

I don't know what I'm running from
And I don't know where I'm running to
There's something deep and strange inside of me, I see

I don't know what I'm running from
And I don't know where I'm running to
Something's compelling me to run into the dark

And now I am more driven than before
And now I live just to settle score
And now I feel the nearness of you breath
Now I introduce you to your death

I am more driven than before
I live just to settle score
I feel the nearness of your breath
I introduce you to your death
I can't punch hard enough
I can't kick high enough
I can't shoot straight enough
I can't hold on enough

I can't stay down enough (die dead enough)
I can't take pain enough (die dead enough)
I can't bleed fast enough (die dead enough)
I can't die dead enough (die dead enough)







Megadeth lyrics are amazing and powerful..
These lyrics are nice, too, off the topic.

Promises - Megadeth


Two hearts that shouldn't
Talk to each other become close
In a town much like a prison cell

People speak our names
On the street in hushed tones
Oh the stories they'd tell
If anyone would listen

You come from a town where
People don't bother saying hello
Unless somebody's born or dies

And I come from a place where they
Drag your hopes through the mud
Because their own dreams are all dying

And when we walk down the street
The wind sings our name in rebel songs
The sounds of the night should make us anxious
But it's much too late when the fear is gone

I will meet you in the Next Life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in Heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise

There's so many fighting
To get past the Pearly Gates
But nobody ever wants to die or get saved

Their intentions aren't that good
And I can smell the asphalt
That's their personal road to hell being paved

And when we walk down the street
The wind sings our names in rebel songs
And it's much too late when the fear is gone

I will meet you in the Next Life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in Heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise

I will meet you in the Next Life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in Heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise



Bye