Did it ever happen to you that you're just so fucking down for no reason that you CAN'T just (abso-fucking-lutely can't) do anything?? I mean nothing at all, nothing but do something you're good at but your mind just doesn't function at anything else, it just doesn't wanna do anything at all, like it has a mind of its own.
Is it Jordan? I thought about it a lot and maybe it is this fucked up hell-hole. Is it just me? Is it people who don't believe in a god? Is it just people who think too much? Is ignorance really a bliss? Are we meant to live under oppression and ignorance's love in order to be alright? Are we meant to be mindless cunts in order to make it in the world? Is thinking a curse? Is that why religions ban getting drunk? Coz it takes you where thinking does? Coz it denies the brainwash? Is brainwash a reality we all hope to cope with? Is freedom really nothing but a dream? Are we really nothing but mindless shits following shit so that we can further out production in order to satisfy the dream of a meaningful existence? Is it a reality that we have to accept that we are animals who have dominant males and weak bondage loving females? Is love real? Love I think is something man-made to make people wanna reproduce... Are we real? Are we nothing but breeding machines like animals in order to maintain balance? Are we nothing? Why do we have a brain then?
Are we so thirsty for answers that make us feel good such that we created a god? Are we so scared of a god such that we ignore it? Are we so scared of questioning such that we don't communicate? Are we really that pathetic? Are we pointless?
I think we really are nothing except for ourselves, we see animals and insects as nothing just like they see all of us as meaningless, but see us as another species with meaninglesss rituals.
Do animals feel? Is it okay to eat unborn chicks because they don't feel anything? Did we create morals that defy the natural cycle? Do we all just pave the way for others and go unnoticed? Is power based on grinding a huge group of people just for the fuck of feeling empowered enough to create? Are we gods? Are we the creators of the common god? Are we significant?
Did you ever think that animals are the final balanced form of a thinking organism? Did you ever think that every living thing was like a human but realized that a lot of things are pointless so just ended up not using their minds in order to maintain the natural balance?
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Okay so Shadi's post on Yameen-Shmal really got me thinking.
Life really changed, we've all come a long way.
Life used to be so simple. Life when you grow up is such a different thing; money, responsibility, awkward silences, being nice, changing who you are, becoming SO FUCKING HUMAN that you forget the good powerful feelings you had/still could feel.
Growing up is all about controlling yourself, you end up controlling your feelings, your heart; why? Coz you gotta grow up.
I'm growing up, I'm a human, I'm responsible. That does not mean - and it shouldn't mean - that I should leave the feelings behind.
Being a child is a wonder, keepiong that child alive is wonderful.
Now I know this sounds weird but I think music really helps keep that child and instinct alive. Instinct is usually connected with sinstinct now, it's not that, instinct is the beautiful thing that keeps life colorful, keeps you who you are.
I'm not letting anyone change who I am; a 100% human person is some fucked up person who finds everything weird and can't enjoy her/his time.
Being cynical is just your mind working I think, just coz you think about stuff doesn't mean you're not spiritual.
The devil is instinct. Rock and her children are instinct.
It keeps you alive.
Everytime I listen to Led Zeppelin, Buckethead, Opeth, Nirvana I get that feeling of emotion.
Rock can bring you to life. Rock IS life.
Religion is organized humanity for me. No more love nor any life in it.
Manners manners manner. Tab kos ommkom. I wanna keep my life and keep the devilish child in me alive, that same kid who put firecrackers in living snail shells :D
Growing up does not mean killing it, it means more control, but control does not mean you don't have a soul.
Lol, back when we were kids and enjoyed doing dumb things.
Man I miss when Cyanide and Happiness comics cracked me up.
I love the I.T. Crowd. It really gives me that beautiful feeling and makes me giggle like a kid. Like Tom and Jerry.
Timeless, always classic and reviving.
Rock music is always gonna be apart of me coz it always revives the child in me.
I'm gonna go hang out with Farah now :)
Whatever happens, it can't stop the time.
Live and have a good time even when you fail. It's life.
Success is not everything. Life is more than that.
Being yourself will bring you success.
Just live, circulate the Earth Mother, Love the Earth Mother, have some passion, have some alcohol, smoke, live, fuck.
LIVE, don't grow up into a dead shelled saggy dude/dudette.
This is probably the most interesting thing on the internet. Racism and child pornography aside, it is wonderful and beautiful to see something being as close as possible to complete freedom somewhere.
And please if anyone knows, please please tell me anything you know about scientology.
Coz I read on some forum somewhere that people who want to join scientology have to sign a deal or contract for some REALLY long period of time (which spans beyond human physical life) which ties the human's eternal soul to the church of scientology (and legally I think).
Now I'M NOT SURE, so don't misunderstand me at all and don't take my words as reliable coz it's based on a drinker's memory, eh? :P
Yeah anyway there's not much to report, hell I dunno what I'm gonna title this post, yet.
rant rant rant rant
Seriously though, I'm all pressured and stuff.
So studies show that if a human slab is put under the right amount of stress, the human will go past the elasticity and tolerance into insanity. It's kinda like welding [or whatever verb they use] steel into shape.
They heat you up then BAM you lose it.
Aaa55 people, been a while.
Nothing to even blog about really, no wonder everyone is quiet.
I think our country is in clinical depression rather than economic lawl
Like they'd just go into the bathroom you know and sit down and relax and parties come out. How fun is that? I bet they enjoy their poops a lot more than we do.
Maybe with diarrhia its more like a rave party or something hahah [beh I know]
Yeah party poopers.
In my situation I believe I'm quite a party pooper [the bad way lol] if I'm in a party with a bad mood. I don't really like dancing parties that much, unless I'm drunk.
Point is... I like being drunk and you are depriving me of the joy, friends! I miss booze, I want some booze, if we're all broke we can all just go sit around in some house and drink and make up some crap to drink.
I'm so bored right now.
I'm just gonna go, nothing to post.
But hey yeah today was april fools' day, how awesome.
It used to be funner, but Abidal texted me and told me he's pregnant and I'm like is it mine? He said april fools and I was relieved and stuff. :P [JOKE BTW HINT HINT]
I might be childish and a dumbass but I'm not an airhead, I'm a deep thinker though it doesn't show at all, I value my friends over many many things, I♥MUSIC [lol], I love guitars and drums and could just look at them and have a good time, I like alcohol if I'm with friends [possibly a guitar, too; though if you drink too much you can't play well] and I'm a bit lazy.