Time Flies

The title says it all...


So there I am listening to a song by the great composer Nobuo Uematsu, Fisherman's Horizon from Final Fantasy VIII, and it really struck me how that game has been out for like 10 or 11 - if not 12 - years already. I still remember the day when I got it, I didn't enjoy a lot of reading in my games back then, it was pretty confusing, now I'm dying for a game with the same amount of genial gameplay such as the old Final Fantasy games.

It's just really bringing tears to my eyes, while listening to that piece, thinking about how much has happened since then.

Last year of school I used to be overly careful and care too much about others. Then we all graduated and I went the complete opposite and hated everything. "Fell in love" and met a lot of people now that I think about it, random encounters here and there. Now it's like all balancing out. I'm slowly growing up older than everyone else I know. I have always seen myself as an old man at heart. I just can't wait to be one...

The old man with the long hair who lives alone in his house and plays guitar in the street just so he can enjoy his life before he dies... an inevitable end.

Life asks us for too much... Well, society asks for too much, but you gotta admit, it's all memories in the making. I just hope I'm not wasting my chances and passion growing up that quickly. Yeah... I doubt that I am. I believe that I am actually being man enough to live my life pretty well right now. I don't care about contradicting myself anymore, I don't care about what others think of me much, I never do something I don't wanna do, I don't lie to myself, and every action that I take is effective in one way or another; yet after all that, I am an old man at heart.

Because maybe I've seen a lot and I feel that it's enough for me, maybe I'm scared of "living", maybe there's that one thing left and I just didn't experience it, or maybe I already did.

Whatever, I just wish to relax already...

Who knows why, I just do.


Is it us who are too demotivated or is it the world doing something to us?


Something is off anyway, this can't be right, or my upbringing was just not good lol...

Well, I digress...

Time really goes-a-by so sloly (deliberate spelling mistake, kids), been a year since I last saw my big brother/friend, been since December since I saw that other friend, been since the beginning of this year since I haven't had Sushi, been 14 years since the PlayStation came out, been a long time since I saw some other friend, been a while since I've done a perfect design, but I blame the system for that lol. It's been a while since I've had a great time drinking (apart from that friend's birthday, that was epic).

Well we can't just be stuck in the past though, but I'm just saying; TIME F**KING FLIES MAN. I can't believe I'm 20 years old, that's so weird. There's so much shit to go through and I don't mind going through it alone coz then you don't give a crap, but it's more worth it, even more enjoyable, going through it with others as long as they actually like it, and I learnt that in Urban Planning this semester and the previous one.

I love random conversations with strangers, I swear man it can really make your day talking to a random pretty girl or smiling at someone and having them smile back, or asking the garbage man how he is and having some random conversation with him, or talking to a cab driver like he's human, or laughing with other people about your team winning (too bad nobody likes Portugal in Jordan... damn bastards), or saying thank you and smiling at someone and literally seeing how they feel good just for being acknowledged.


Here's for time and the free time we have for appreciating the ripping surprise buttsecks that we are given to by life.